Never Give Up
Updated: Oct 14, 2018
The past year of my life has been consumed with job hunting and my new full-time job suddenly became searching for a new one. One of my biggest struggles was figuring out my next step in life. I’d been working hard over the past nine years building my career in corporate communications and marketing and loved it so much, but was that the path the Lord wanted me to continue to pursue?
I quickly found that jobs in my field at the level I was interested in were few and far between. Yeah there were plenty of entry-level positions requiring one to three years of experience at great companies, but was I really going to be happy taking a huge pay cut and essentially starting over from scratch? People kept telling me “it’s easier to get a job when you have a job,” which I think is true, but was it really fair to myself to apply for a position where I knew from day one I would already be looking for something that required more years of experience? I didn't want to accept a full-time position and then leave weeks later when I found something better. Was that really the right thing to do though since nothing was working out?
There were also several times over the course of the last year where I really questioned if staying in corporate communications and marketing was where I was meant to be. Maybe this was my opportunity to start my own business, or maybe it was time to start over in a new field all together. Was Jacksonville where I was meant to be? Maybe expanding my radius on where I was applying the key? I went on a few job interviews where it would be a completely fresh start and although the pay would’ve been good, and the job would have been a good challenge, I never felt a peace about leaving the corporate communications world behind.
Back in May, after 7 months of job searching, I felt like just throwing in the towel all together. I was tired of getting rejected for jobs I should have been getting. I was tired of answering the same questions over and over. I was just sick of it. Sick of people asking me “have you found a job yet,” sick of having to tell them no, for the 20th time. I was just sick and tired.
I think a lot of my discouragement came simply from constant rejection. Let's face it, rejection hurts and it's something I think we all try to avoid if at all possible. Being rejected from jobs you're completely qualified for month after month made me put a lot of things into question. Was I saying the wrong things during my interview? Why didn't people want to hire me? Is the Lord trying to teach me something? Obviously He is... but WHAT am I supposed to be learning?
That month during a family vacation I started reading a book that a friend recommended to me called “Lean In” by Sheryl Sandberg which focuses on women in the workplace, female empowerment and leadership. Her book examined how women can unintentionally hold themselves back in their careers and offers specific steps women can take to combine professional achievement with personal fulfillment. Truthfully after reading it I was re-inspired to work my butt off to achieve my dream of finding that “dream” job. I couldn’t wait to get back into the corporate setting where I could hopefully put my skills to good use. During the second week of my vacation (being unemployed had some perks) I started applying for jobs again. The next week I landed an interview and was back in the grind! I knew what I wanted to do, and nothing was going to stop me.
After a few more months of applying, interviewing and trusting the Lord to open and close the right doors I started a new job, 363 days after losing my previous one. I am confident this is the job that God had waiting for me all this time. I’m so glad I didn’t settle and followed my heart and dreams along the way. I'm sure there will be more posts to come about what I've learned over the past year, but for now, I just encourage you to follow your dreams and never give up.